Tuesday, March 14, 2006
confession
haven't been updating my blog for a long long time. that's because i haven't really been at home. go to work in the afternoon. reaching home in the morning. literally morning where the sun's up. then go to work in the afternoon again. pretty much like a routine now. haha. feeling rather down recently for no apparent reason. maybe it's because i'm too emotional or something. feeling stressed and tired and thinking too much of certain useless nonsensical issues. haiz. everytime i'm down. it'll always be the same issue that bothers me. now that i'm working at a place that can drink and stuff. i've been drinking for the past few days. haha. clubbing at rav. watching movies at 4am in the morning. going to k-box after work at 3am. haha. kinda love this night life. reach home sleep. sleep wake up go work. after work go enjoy. and the day goes on like that. but it's kinda exhausting on the other hand. so i didn't work today. for the whole of last week i'm working working working. haha. at least i get to see someone. haha. anything else doesn't really matter. but i look so super lethargic. asshole. haha. ok la. kinda feeling broken down abit. but what to do.
i want to retract the words i said to you
on that faithful night i confessed
everything outwardly seems to be fine
but inside of me, i lied
why did i have to give it away
become part of a character in a story
the drinkings and the late nights out
i would be home sleeping, knock out
who are you to make me feel this way
you are a nobody, a nobody
and that makes you someone in me
just because
it's you
LyDiA[Tuesday, March 14, 2006]
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