Tuesday, June 14, 2005
nothing
long time ago, not too long too, i'm obsess with mutants, vampires and werewolves. i dunno why. but i love them. i like to read stories on them, watch movies about them and simply thinking about them.
partly was because those stories about them have always been loneliness. people avoid them, people hated them, people just didn't want them in their societies. i have liked them because of certain reasons. firstly, i find them special. they have what the majority doesn't have. i dunno how to explain the feeling it gives me. but i've always wanted to be special. being someone who is different from others. i use to believe they exist, it's just that we don't know.
besides, not many people know this. but yea. i'm posting it. ran out of people to talk to. so might as well just post it. since i wouldn't know who would be reading. i'm just talking to my computer. assuming that his listening. hopefully. i like the feeling of being helpless (being tied up and not being able to do anything). weird eh. call me psychotic. crazy or whatever. but it's been a long time that i've liked this kinda thing.
of cos i've talked to people about this and there's advises and stuff coming in. don't worry. i'm not suffering from any mental illness. far from it. i'm fine and totally alright.
but this few days, some thing's been troubling me. i think my thoughts have run abit to wild. i even have problem differentiating my dreams from reality. my dreams seemed so real this few days. and it's kinda freaking me out. cos i'd wake up thinking, did i really say that? did i really do that? i don't know what exactly is going on in my mind and stuff. but i know i've been thinking alot lately.
emptiness. the sudden feeling of something unexplainable. i dunno how to explain this thing that i felt. but i believe everyone will have experience this at least once. u just dunno why, but u feel like crying. and when u cry, u'd be asking yourself, why are u crying but u just couldn't find a reason. u just feel like crying. well, i've been feeling like this. for no reason. wonder what's wrong too. i don't feel lonely, but there's this emptiness (guess that's the only word i can find to describe).
haiz. just realised whatever i write seems to have no connections at all. all seems to be so scrambled. guess that's what i'm feeling bah. messed up and stuff. it's not very late. but guess it's time to sleep. will continue to write when i'm in the right mind again. good night.
i heard the wind
i felt the chill
but nothing can ever be
colder than emptiness
LyDiA[Tuesday, June 14, 2005]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Friday, June 10, 2005
what is
are looks really important?
is wealth really important?
is the level of education important?
what is?
i realise that all the so called important things that people categorised form barriers among themselves, restricting themselves from many things. the world is filled with so many kinds of people. is there a need to rate all of them?
rich and poor
educated and uneducated
pretty and ugly?
no one is perfect right?
people often have checklists made for the friends they wanna have, or even a partner. she must have this, he must have that. blah blah blah. rubbish. and because of what you are looking for, you go around searching for a worldly perfect one
let me tell ya, you'll never find one on Earth
but i know of someone who's perfect.
Jesus
if you are looking for someone who is wealthy, He is
someone who is smart and witty, full of wisdom, He is
whether He is good looking or not, i don't care. cause if looks are important, you should go look at the mirror at yourself before commenting.
you don't love someone for the looks only right?
it's the character that counts.
of cause there's a famous saying that
"if boys are not bad boys, girls won't like them"
true? no, i don't think so
looking at today's society, if u are a bad guy, what are you gonna do in future? rob the bank to earn a living. tell ya what, why not let God touch your heart, open up to Him. He can be your friend. a very personal one. He's a person with a great character, a great ruler and a great King.
Jesus has it all
Save your mind from thinking who you want to love
i've found the perfect one.
named it for you too.
so have you accepted Him?
what are you waiting for?
LyDiA[Friday, June 10, 2005]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
lost
something's missing
i can't seem to get it back
what should i do?
stay and wait?
LyDiA[Wednesday, June 01, 2005]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
[[*Trapped Soul*]]
Name:Chin Kegan
First Cry:23rd maY 1993
Sch00l:Kranji Secondary School
E-mail:kegan93@hotmail.com
[[*My Adores*]]
Stuffs: I lOvE BeArs
Pastimes:DaYdReAmIng
People: God!!! FaMiLy aND FrIendS!!! StRiKEfORcE!!!
[[*My Detests*]]
People: LiErS AnD BaCkStABBErs
Things: INSeCts!!!
[[*Things I Want*]]
SKIN long sleeve white top-$387
RIPCURL black long sleeve top-$69
heels from TANGS+CO-$199
GUESS belt-$99.90
ED HARDY cap-$149
LEVI'S skirt-$99.90
CONVERSE sneakers-$69
HARLEY DAVIDSON belt
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