Monday, February 28, 2005
Miss Ya GuyS So MuCh
well.. today is the last day of febuary... wanna leave the date in my blog.. haha... now is 10.41pm at night.. eyes are kinda heavy already... drooping.. haha... dunno what to write also... ran out of things to say... too tired to think of anything.. school today is kinda boring... dunno what to do sia... haha... after a series of tutorials and lectures... had P.E. lessons.. argh... and it rained.. and the teacher ask us to continue playing... then after that still got remedial.. until 7... haha... in air con room somemore... so cold. brrr... my mind is still empty at the moment...
i'm like thinking... if CHINGAY is still not over.. i'd still be at kallang practicing... haha... maybe on the way home already... i really miss the trainings man.. here goes:
When there was training
I kept complaining
Now that it's over
Missing it is how i'm feeling
The movements
The drumbeats
The bases and flyers
The trainings
The late nights
The supper and fellowship
The determination
The perserverance
The attitude and patience
Through this trainings
I've found new friendships
Through this trainings
The bonds are strenghten
My time spent have been all worthwhile
As it has never been dull
Dedicated to StUNts.. haha... thankz guys... with you guys around... my time spent there was vibrantly coloured... laughters and tears... it's so fun... i really miss it alot... thankz alot... especially Angel.. if u didn't choose me to be in stunts.. don't think i'd know any of you.. and i dont think i'd enjoy the practices.. it's because of u people that i look forward to every trainings and practices... Love Ya guys so much... *Muackz* and *Huggies*...
Ech0-stunTs
LyDiA[Monday, February 28, 2005]
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Friday, February 25, 2005
School Starts
Up comes the sun and the morning ray
Shining through my window in this brand new day
Picking myself up on the bed i sat
Looking at the clock reading what it said
It's seven in the morning time to get up
But i'm still tired and want a back rub
Can i not go school today
But no choice, i can't have it my way
Off to school in my father's car
A school that's near but yet so far
Into the gate i enter i saw my school
Feeling so tired, so dreadful
First lesson was GP
Followed by Chemistry
Both are my worst subjects
Yet they are things i cannot reject
Afterwhich i had assembly
The talk was on Time Management
It was so boring that i could sleep
But i can't cos my teacher would see
Sad day in school right? so boring.. haiz...
just joking.. school aint that bad today la...
Ech0-HuaSted
LyDiA[Friday, February 25, 2005]
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
I wanna know...
Lord
Tell me if he is for me
What and how issit gonna be
Tell me now, straight and direct
I don't want my feelings to be crapped
Should i remain or should i go
How long should i wait for the answer to show
I'm curious and i wanna know
What is my future that You hold
Softly in my ears
You can whisper to me
Or through my dreams
You can let me see
Tell me now
Tell me today
Now
Today
Ech0-tell
LyDiA[Wednesday, February 23, 2005]
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
CHINGAY
Today's the BiG DaY for Us StRIKeForCE PeoPLe!!! Haha... WOW.. i'm so excited today... NOw am at my friends place.. plaiting my hair.. haha.. how ar... i'm super nervous lor... haiz.. yesterday was kinda bad... didn't manage to get up the first time.. then also didn't manage to open the container that contain the paper bits.. then the second time also.. wasn't on time.. haha... haiz.. hopefully silently i pray that today would be so much better then yesterday... I believe!!!! Can ONE!!! I BELIEVE!!!
TOday's the ImpoRtaNT DaY
THat's WhaT eVEryONe sAy
I pRaY ThaT EvEryOnE wiLL GivE iN TheIR BesT
AnD We wiLL BeAt ALL thE REsT
GoiNG DOwN ThE RoaD of OrcHard
PerFormIng To The eaGeR CrOWd
StOmPiNg wItH ouR MoveS AnD sTunTs
StUmPiNG THeM wiTh ExCiTemEnt And FuN
All ThE waY STRIKEFORCE!!!!
STUNTS PEOPLE!!! RAWK THEM DOWN!!!
LOVE YA ALL!!!
Ech0-ciTed
LyDiA[Saturday, February 19, 2005]
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
HAiz...
well.. dunno why... my internal nose bleed is back again.. think got not enuff sleep.. yawnz.. and ya it's 12.44am now.. just reach home not long ago from my practice... this friday and saturday got CHINGAY... Come down and support us ya? we'd love to have you there although it'd be super duper cramped and squeezy... haha...well.. till now.. the thing i feel is not perfected yet too.. argh!!! the timing is kinda rush and everything seems to be in a rush... The going up.. the exchanging of tonfas and shakers and blah blah blah... haiz... why ar... can't we just do it perfectly? and now got another thing to ponder... the glitters.. how are we gonna take it with us with all the movements and how to make it special... we're gonna like carry so many things lor... haiz... then moving from stations to stations carrying those stuff... weird... and kinda obstruct our movements.. really dunno what to do man.. left with only two more practices... very fast one lor.. although ya.. when it's over it's over.. but i wan it to be good... to be able to impact people and let them feel the difference between other performances and ours...God!!! I need IDEAS... Help me... Argh!!! i wanna believe that after all the effort, the sweat and the time put in this thing, we will be perfect and succeed... dun wan things to go wrong and stuff.. i wanna believe in that... please make it happen... please... i'm really tired already... please make it happen... hard tight perfect... things please dun go wrong...
LyDiA[Tuesday, February 15, 2005]
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
ARGH!!!
Haiz.. last night slept at 4 just to finish the Valentine's day card for my cell group guys... Still haven finish lor.. Now still doing.. haiz... dunno whether can finish on time anot.. So tired now.. work up at 9.30am to do housework before my mum comes home.. once she's home.. it's OH NO!!! She's gonna nag like mad bout how dirty is the house and how we didn't take care of the house and blah blah blah... YAWNZ... TIRED!!! and later still have training... ARGH!!!! turning crazy soon... 4 more trainings to Chingay... Really hope everything will work out fine... and good and perfect... hopefully... silently i pray...
Ech0-blah
LyDiA[Sunday, February 13, 2005]
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Love?
Today i woke up late.. and in the end was late for some visiting... Then i reach my friend's place at around 12.15... and not knowing that the girl i'm visiting next is home.. i waited at her void deck of 45mins before the rest of my cell members came... haiz...sad right? second time some more.. yesterday the same thing happen... well.. but it's over now... after that we went over to my cell leader's home.. wow.. i tell you.. going there is like going shopping.. she wanted to give away her clothes.. and most are new... wow.. haha.. i took a black top and two pairs of jeans... at that time is around 4pm and i left... cos have to go down to kallang... have practice from 6 till 11pm.. very long right.. tired ar.. took cabbie back home.. the movements are still not really done yet lor.. haiz... very scared cannot complete it perfectly tml.. somemore tml have to show Bro Tan Boon the moves and everything... But until today.. most of us are still unsure and not tight.. ARGH!!! going crazy man... Midst of breaking down soon.. And Valentines' day is coming.. The stunts guys are so So sO sweet... they bought us girls Sunflowers.. wow.. Honestly.. this is the first time i recieve something on valentines day from a guy.. though it's friends.. but ya.. First time.. cool... now it's hanging by my table.. gonna make it dry... haha... hmm.. then dunno why.. my past starts to emerge.. kinda remind me of what happen last valentine.. not really nice though.. haha.. but yep.. it's over.. shouldn't be brooding over it anymore.. anyway it's like so long ago.. but i'm missing my valentine's day... haha.. really want one day to have it perfect...
Why do love exist when it brings pain
After each rejection my heart would rain
Even after struggling in vain
Nothing's gained
Is it really worth to cry
I really wonder why
I always ask God
What is called Heaven's divined
Who can i call mine
From where can i find
When will our hearts combine
Ech0-in
LyDiA[Sunday, February 13, 2005]
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Friday, February 11, 2005
Loneliness
I sat that waiting for you
But where were you
You did not turn up
And you didn't tell me
I quietly waited and waited
But there was still no response
I tried my best not to upset you
But things always seems to turn out wrong
Correct me
Tell me
Don't keep me in the dark
It gets lonely
Really lonely...
Ech0-LoneLy
LyDiA[Friday, February 11, 2005]
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Second Day of New year
Surprisingly i'm not really tired... haha.. Last night i reached home at 5 am... In the end slept for less then 6 hours and my father woke me up at 10am... I ponder what to wear and stuff and wasted like an hour plus... went for lunch at Jurong at around 1pm.. Then at around 2pm went over to my Aunt's place at Novena.. Haha... I'm super hardworking ok... I brought my homework there to do leh... People enjoying themselves i there doing homework... wahahaha.. First time ar... then i do do do do... Do until i finish... Then at 6.30pm... set off to Novena MRT station to go meet my friends...
I...
Went out with a bunch of FrIenDs
It was fun but it has come to an EnD
Went for dinner at SummEr SpOOn
The drink i ordered tasted like PrUnE
Afterwhich we went for a MoVIe
What we watched was CoNsTaNtiNe
It is kinda GrOsS anD HoRrIbLe
But overall it is still WaTchAbLe
After watching we went for SuPpEr
The place is called The Cafe Crossinoeur(dunno how to spell)
Ordered a sandwich with MuShRoOm AnD ChICkEn
And a drink, Mocha VaNi
It is nice ThOUgh
But the prise of them is my FoE
Haha....
Ech0-yAwnz
LyDiA[Friday, February 11, 2005]
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
Happy Chinese New Year
Alright... Today is the second day of New Year... Now is 5AM in the morning and i just reach home... Very late right? Haha... Yea.. And in 6 hours time i've to be at my aunts place... And after 12 hours... I'll be meeting my CoOL BunCh Of FrIenDs... Afterwhich, 6 hours after meeting my friends... I need to be in school... Haiz.. So tiring....
Another thing is where is the New YeaR atMoSpHere??? I feel nothing... Nothing special... So sad... It's kinda boring too...
Can't wait for meet ups and stuff...
I'm sitting by my room window
With the breeze blowing against my face
Brrr.. So cold
I'm Looking out into the darkness
Thinking of the next day
Of how I can
Make it better
It's been so boring
It's been so energy-less
Aint there anything exciting
That we can do?
BoRinG!!!
Ech0-boRed
LyDiA[Thursday, February 10, 2005]
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Squeezed!
Today is a superly tiring day... Even in the morning.. The lectures and tutorials... I'm like stoning away... Not understanding at all what the teacher and lecturers are trying to impart into me... Haha... Was really stoning and day dreaming... Which is my part time hobby... Haiz... I think i'm finished... Common tests are coming up and i'm still playing and not studying... Kinda stressful though... Now with the Chingay stuff and Chinese New Year coming up... Everything seems to clash together...
Anyway... Today suck... I was such a complete idiot... ArGh!!! Can we turn back the clock??? Haiz... Felt real bad now... Sorry guys... I know somehow it'll affect some of you... But i really didn't mean it... Sorry... I know my attitude kinda suck just now... haiz... didn't expect myself to swing that badly... Sorry guys...
Life and Time
Squeezed out like a Lemon
Although it's sour
But it'll be sweet for me
Ech0-tired
LyDiA[Tuesday, February 08, 2005]
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Monday, February 07, 2005
I believe
I know...
The time now is very Rough
And going through it is pretty Tough
But no matter What
Please do not Give Up
I believe...
With God as our Guide
Everything's gonna be Alright
Don't despair and trust in Him
And our troubles will be dim
I believe...
God's strength is Sufficient for us
Set off into the future and away with the Past
And He will be with us to the very Last
I believe...
Ech0-LiEvE
LyDiA[Monday, February 07, 2005]
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
Friends
Yo!!! Today i didn't go to church cause it's my DaRLinG DaDdY's BiRthday!!!! I Love him sO so So much... Without him... I wouldn't be who i am today... He's such a loving daddy... haha... Well... Now is only morning... Dunno what to do also... I feel so bad... I didn't made him or buy him anything... ArGh!!!! ShiKes... Anyway... Later at night got StRiKeFoRce... Heard from my Contact Head that there will be changes here and there again... Haiz... haha... And another thing is... The stunts people have yet to come up with new moves... Argh!!! How long is this gonna take???
New year is coming and i definitely am looking forward to it... All the money... Wearing new clothes and going from one house to another... It's also a reunion time with oLD BuDdIEs... PanG PanG!!! I MisS ALL of YOu man... Because of church and cell and strikforce... I disappoint them again and again by not turning up for their birthday celebrations... I'm so SoRrY guys... But i dare not promise anything yet... For this week and after is a busy week for me... haiz... So sAdz... BoOhOo... soBz Sobz... Got difficulty arranging my time... Well.. But what's important lies in the heart ya?? Although I seldom see you all... You are still deep inside my heart... Wow... Touched??? haha....
Although you are people i seldom see
But in my heart, you are often miss
Deep down inside, how i wish
That there will be a day, we could meet
Although you are people i seldom hear
But i know, i don't have to fear
Even when you are far away from here
For friends are known, to be near
Although you are people i seldom feel
But i know my heart is always sealed
With a relationship that no one can steal
A friendship that is deeply instilled
I LoVe YoU GUys....*()MuaCkZz()*
Ech0-SeNSe
LyDiA[Sunday, February 06, 2005]
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Love Equals Pain?
Why must Love exist when it brings about Pain?
I know He Loves me
But am i worth the Pain?
Ech0-OuCh
LyDiA[Sunday, February 06, 2005]
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Friday, February 04, 2005
Depression
I am...
Falling into DEPRESSION
Struggling with DESPERATION
Breaking out in PERSPIRATION
Losing all my CONCENTRATION
So I am now...
Trying with DETERMINATION
Without any DISTRACTION
Analysing this SITUATION
Searching for a SOLUTION
But I want to know...
Is this an ILLUSION
Affecting my life's DESTINATION
Lord my SALVATION
Get me out from this POSITION
Ech0-TION
LyDiA[Friday, February 04, 2005]
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
Right beside me
It was You who brought me out from tiredness
Letting me
Without complaints
Rest in Your arms again
Each time i'm alone
You never fail to show
How i will never be
Alone anymore
You showed me the Light
When i'm in Darkness
You showed me the way
When i'm lost
But I don't have to worry
For right beside me
Is You
I Love You
Ech0
LyDiA[Thursday, February 03, 2005]
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[[*Trapped Soul*]]
Name:Chin Kegan
First Cry:23rd maY 1993
Sch00l:Kranji Secondary School
E-mail:kegan93@hotmail.com
[[*My Adores*]]
Stuffs: I lOvE BeArs
Pastimes:DaYdReAmIng
People: God!!! FaMiLy aND FrIendS!!! StRiKEfORcE!!!
[[*My Detests*]]
People: LiErS AnD BaCkStABBErs
Things: INSeCts!!!
[[*Things I Want*]]
SKIN long sleeve white top-$387
RIPCURL black long sleeve top-$69
heels from TANGS+CO-$199
GUESS belt-$99.90
ED HARDY cap-$149
LEVI'S skirt-$99.90
CONVERSE sneakers-$69
HARLEY DAVIDSON belt
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