Saturday, November 05, 2005
fairytale
life's been boring with A-Level's round the corner. i'm not exactly feeling stress but i can't explain how i'm feeling. it felt so much like insercurity but it doesn't really make sense if i say that. i'm not attached and stuff like that. no friendship problem. but i'm feeling so troubled. don't know what's really wrong. so irritating. it's as if everyday i miss out on something really important but yet i don't know what is it. irritating isn't it. not knowing what is missing.
anyway, currently i joined this gym. actually not currently la. it's very long already. it's about a month. came to know 3 guys. one is my consultant, two are my personal trainer. i was glad i know them instead of others in the gym. so far i find them friendlier then the rest of the people. maybe it's because they are entertaining me. haha.
today at cineleisure. i saw him. haha. he's so cute. blehz. even my parents say he is. haha. so he is cute. love it when he smile. but the next time i'm gonna see him will rounghly a month later. so sad. can't get to see him. but no worries. he'll be on my mind. hopefully one day can get a picture of him. haha. alright. i think i'm going crazy.
my dad just came back from China and he bought so many things for me. i'm so happy. i got new mp4 player and a new bag and a new wallet. loving them so much. come to think of it. i'm blessed with lots of new stuffs. even my California Fitness membership is fully paid by my dad. love him so much.
life's like a fairytale
things that are unreal may seem so real
things that are real may seem so unreal
people live behind a mask
life is just a stage
an individual is just a role played
directed by God
emotions can be so well hidden
everything's kept in the dark
who knows what's going on
if you don't say
sometimes i wonder
what's real and what's not
the answer i'm looking for
never seems to talk
a person who seem so nice on the surface
may be just a hypocrite
a person who seem so harsh on the surface
may be longing for love and embrace
how do we tell them apart
it's just too hard
everything can be a fake
but yet so realistic(WTH)
tell me what and who should i believe?
LyDiA[Saturday, November 05, 2005]
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