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JUDGE NOT THE LORD BY FEEBLE SENSE
BUT TRUST HIM FOR HIS GRACE
BEHIND A FROWNING PROVIDENCE
HE HIDES A SMILING FACE

TO HAVE THE POWER TO FORGIVE
IS EMPIRE AND PREROGATIVE
AND 'TIS IN CROWNS A NOBLER GEM
TO GRANT A PARDON THAN CONDEMN

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Thursday, July 21, 2005

looking back

back in the past
you told me i didn't trust you
maybe i didn't
but did you?

i wasn't sure of what to say
i was at lost for words
shocked and speechless
staring at you was all i could do

i wanted to tell you
i didn't wanna let go
i wanted to tell you
how much i love you

but i didn't get the chance to

time again and again
back in my own room
where memories will flow
wishing you were here beside me

although the time we were together
wasn't very long
but those days together
were really memorable

now each of us have our own path
seeking and searching what's right for us
just wanna thank you for that day
allowing a better future ahead

for a lesson was learnt

i dunno. personally, i don't really like break-ups. there was a few i've experience that left me depressed for a few days. but when i look back, i realised behind every break-up there's a reason. it may not be truth, it might just be an excuse to break-up. but i don't mind. i did my part by asking the reason, hoping to know why so that in my next relationship, i won't repeat the mistake i made previously. although i feel very bad and depressed after a break-up, but looking back, it's really not worth crying over. the bible says to forget those things which are behind and reaching forward to those that are ahead. i realised no matter how hard i cry. that person won't come back to me. people always tell me."if he is meant to be yours he'll be back. if not, just let him go." i never wanted to believe this, but seems to me i've to face the fact. but from each break-up, i learnt a few lessons. and this lessons though not really significant, i believe it'll make me a better girlfriend in future. people out there. you need not agree with me as this is my personal opinion. i feel that if a relationship is not working, let it go. no use holding on to something that will eventually come to an end. find out what's wrong and learn from it, so that when the next time you are in a new relationship, you won't do the same thing. cause i still clearly remember what happened with my first guy and the previous one. it was totally different. for the first guy, i didn't know how to be a girlfriend and i underdo it. and being afraid that it would happen again. to the previous guy, i think i overdo it. so hopefully, when the next one comes. it'd be a good one. haha. but i know another thing.

Jesus is the best.
He never leaves no matter what happens
and i love Him.

LyDiA[Thursday, July 21, 2005]

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