Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Friends
i was told having just friends are not enough
there's a need to go deeper than that
having a closer friend
but not a future spouse
but what is meant by a friend?
being together?
spending time talking?
eating lunch together?
i've lost the meaning
i've lost what is called being a friend
those of you who claim to have best friends
what do you all do?
what do you all share about?
do you talk about everything under the sun?
even your deepest secrets?
how did you manage to trust?
why did you take the chance to believe?
cause i don't
not anymore
i've lost the significance of true friendship
i don't even feel the need to have a close friend
although sometimes it does feels lonely
when you need someone but there's no one
but still, i've lost
what is being and having a best friend
life seems so much better without it
no fear of betrayal
no fear of loss
nothing to worry about
i don't like to lose someone who's important to me
and i don't want to lose that someone-to-be again
that's why i'm not building any close friendship
i'm sorry
for the time being
i still can't do it
LyDiA[Tuesday, May 31, 2005]
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