Tuesday, March 22, 2005
StresseD
it's been a long time since i wrote like this.. as in... writing what happens during my day... today have been rather hectic... have been trying to complete my revision by today... but haiz... bad news... i can't and didn't manage to do it...
the whole day... i was trying to do my maths ten years series... our teacher gave us a list of questions for preparation... there's a total of 126 questions... not alot right? but all is on differentiation and integration... i was like trying to do until i wanna cry already... i couldn't do most of them... i'm superly discouraged... in the end i stopped doing and just read through my lecture notes.. hoping that it would be of help to me tomorrow.. and yes.... my test is tomorrow and i'm still blogging... stress la... no choice... have to destress abit... if not i will turn crazy... happened once.. was so stressed up that i started crying for no reason... hmmm... not right.. i cried because i wanted to destress... haha.... yea... hate it when i need to study... cause nothing goes in my head... can someone out there teach me how to study smart?? i really need a tactic... anyway... what i've mentioned above is just one subject...
i'm having two test tomorrow... maths and physics... haha... surprising huh... and i feel like slaughtering the teacher who organised this whole common test thingy.. fancy putting to subjects that have got so many formulas to memorise together... there's really lots of formulas.. and i tend to mix them up all the time... haiz... especially physics.. one letter can represent so many thing... for example.. the letter V... it can represent velocity, volume and voltage... and we use all kinds of letters.. and i'm messed up... there's U, T, S, E, I, and blah blah blah.. the letters goes on... haha... and there's a news for you... i haven't touch my physics yet.. it's not that i don't want to... i simply got no time and no mood to study... yea.. of cos it's not your fault.. i didn't say so... it's mine... of not knowing how to manage my time properly and stuff...
haiz... my chemistry paper was just yesterday... and i think i've done badly... there's a couple of questions that i don't understand and in the end i left it blank... haiz... chemistry is a total stranger to me... really need to build up a relationship with it... maybe i'll try being friend with it... maybe my grades will be better.. from there on.. then i progress and make further decisions.. haha... but i only got a few months more to go... to have a very strong relationship with it... it'd be good if i can make it to marriage.. then everything will go well.. haha.. ok... i'm starting to talk rubbish...
i'm really stressed.. although i don't look like i do.. cos i still come online and stuff... in reality... i'm running away... right?? studying seems to be no fun at all... and i'm quite afraid of it... ever since i stepped in a junior college.. i've been having difficulty passing... i'm not talking about getting "A"s yet ok... just an "E"... i've got problem getting it... i never had problems passing when i was in primary schools and secondary schools.. i've got no worries when i study... but now... all the WHAT IFs are haunting me... so far.. i've yet to pass any chemistry paper.. and yes.. that's how bad i'm doing... i've never gotten and "D"s for any subject before... excluding GP... i'm really lost... ARGH!!!!
what's wrong with me and my study technique
that makes my day seems so hectic
i wanna slow down and study smart
but why do i find it so hard
someone out there who's reading this
you should know that i sounded quiet pissed
i really need help in how to study
anyone who knows please call immediately
i'm sick of failing all my subjects
not just failing, but including my mums nags
all i ask now is at least a passing grade
cause i've been feeling rather discourage
i want to have a testimony just like that girl
i want my grades to be just like hers
i was truly inspired after her speech
but for now, just a pass is what i beseech(did i use it correctly? sounds abit weird to me)
however
i don't have to fear
for i know
He will lead me through
He is my pillar of strenght
i do believe in Miracles
i do
i do
ech0-stressed
LyDiA[Tuesday, March 22, 2005]
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