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JUDGE NOT THE LORD BY FEEBLE SENSE
BUT TRUST HIM FOR HIS GRACE
BEHIND A FROWNING PROVIDENCE
HE HIDES A SMILING FACE

TO HAVE THE POWER TO FORGIVE
IS EMPIRE AND PREROGATIVE
AND 'TIS IN CROWNS A NOBLER GEM
TO GRANT A PARDON THAN CONDEMN

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Monday, March 28, 2005

Bad Sad Day

haiz
don't really know the reason why
feeling rather down today
got back my results in school
maths and physics mcq
well
i didn't expect myself to get below 50 marks
cos i was pretty confident after the paper
that i could do better then that
got back the paper
took a look at it
flipped through the pages
realise one thing
lots of careless
but mostly also i don really know how to do
but at least i knew some
and it secured my pass
praise the Lord for that

then later in the day
i went to look for a teacher in my school
regarding some CIP stuff
i know the rules in school
that i have to get it approved first before doing this CIP
but i didn't know that Chingay could be included
so i kinda procrastinated
went into her office
sat down in front of her
she looked fierce
the first thing she asked was
why i didn't get it approved first before doing it
and so like what any people will do
i explained to her
telling her i didn't know it could be included
that i couldn't find her
and i knew it much later that it could be included
and it goes on
she was so fierce
she scolded me for not following the school rules
and saying that i couldn't find her
and i started crying
one reason was that i was intimidated by her
another was i was embarrassed in the general office
another was i was frustrated that she doesn't seem to understand
i know it's my fault that i didn't manage to follow the rules
but i just want to make sure about it
and asked her
but it didn't turn out to be a nice conversation
however
she accepted my CIP form
PRAISE THE LORD for that
and i cried again
she told me that if she were to follow by the law
my CIP wouldn't have been approved
but it was through grace she gave me a second chance
wow
i was relieved
i cried because i was touched
and it was so embarrassing when i walked out of the GO
my eyes and nose were red

then i went back to class
it was physics lesson
sat down and we got back our MCQ paper
right, it was just as expected
to be honest
i scored the lowest in class
haiz, it's kinda sad
then my teacher went through our paper two
looking at the circumstance
i don't think i can pull through physics already
yucks

after which we had PE
it was physical training
we ran a total of 4.3Km and did 50 jumping jacks
30 sit ups and 30 push ups
super tiring
timing of my run wasn't good
gonna train up and get a better timing
and so my school days ends here

now i'm home
i just surfed through the net
blogging, friendster and msn
nothing much though
saw my friends pic
sometimes i wonder
how do people look so natural in pictures
i suck at that
always felt that i look weird in pics
that's one reason why i don really like phototaking sessions
always wanted to put it all behind me
and be normal when taking it
but somehow it's not working
haiz
hate it
i really envy people who are photogenic
they look so nice in pics
and they can just take thousands and thousands of them
without looking bad
why
hate it

i hate it when things doesn't turn out well
hate it hate it hate it
so irritating

sometimes i really wonder
what's the point of trying
when each time you try
the next thing you know
is you have failed

sigh...

ech0-raged

LyDiA[Monday, March 28, 2005]

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