Friday, June 30, 2006
updating
well. it's been a long time since i updated my blog. i'm doing fine. accept that i ain't able to get into the school i wanted to. but fret not. i've decided to go to SIM. so yea. i've got a school to go to. hopefully they'll accept me. if not i'm dead and schooless. have been working alot. physically straining. tiring.
in a few weeks time and i'll be going to taiwan emerge. can't wait. kinda excited about it too. it'll be from 12th July to 17th July. gonna buy lotsa stuff home from dfs. haha. mainly perfumes ba.
for those in strikeforce and wondering where i am and stuff. i'm taking a break from strikeforce to concentrate on certain things first. i'll be back after a few weeks time. miss you guys. can't wait to see you all again :]
in a relationship. issit really that hard to trust each other. sometimes. if you know the past of the person. it's kinda hard to really forget what happen. especially when you've seen and heard it yourself. worse if you can really feel it. but well. a relationship never works without trust right? doubting and doubting. coming up with all sorts of funny reasons that he's playing around. when are this gonna stop? now?
i've waited too long to give you up
i've waited too long to let go
i love you
and i really mean it
i may seemed distance at times
but in my heart you know
i do
LyDiA[Friday, June 30, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Friday, May 05, 2006
love-bliss or miss
it's been a long time since i last updated. here's an update on what's going on. have been working almost everyday last month. gonna stop soon. getting tired. worn out soon. went plasma two days ago and drank quite a fair bit. played dice and 5-10. after which went k-box. vera is a fantastic singer. simply in love with her voice. it's WOW.
anyway. liking someone is always a chore. i dunno why. it's never successful. hate it. yet somethng i can't live without. something that i long for. no matter it's emotionally or physically. love can be a bliss. yet a murderous killer to the heart. u either survive or u die. most of the time people get hurt. somewhere in between. not to such extreme. but accumulative hurts end up leaving ugly and unwanted scars.
both parties play a part relationships. but why does people take advantage? i'm a girl. i'll never understand guys. are there anything that guys do just for fun? or just because it's a spur of the moment? or is there more to it? testing water? flirting? why are people born with such nature? do people like them know what is call hurt? i really don't understand how come their actions contradicts with the things they say. it's idiotic. maybe the girl, i , am stupid. but why can't they refrain from doing what is unneccassary and wrong? questions with no certain answers.
LyDiA[Friday, May 05, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Friday, March 31, 2006
A Shoulder To Cry On
Life is full of lots of up and downs
But the distance feels further
When it's headed for the ground
And there's nothing more painful
Then to let your feelings take
You down
It's so hard to know
The way you feel inside
When there's so many thoughts
And feelings that you hide
But you might feel better
If you let me walk with you
By your side
And when you need a shoulder to cry on
When you need a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone
Cause i'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be a friend to rely on
When the whole world's gone
You won't be alone
Cause i'll be there
All of the times
When everything is wrong
And you're feeling like there's no use going on
You can't give it up
I'll help you work it out
And carry on
Side by side
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone
Cause i'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone
Cause i'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone
Cause i'll be there
And when the whole world's gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on
i came across this song at my workplace and fell in love with it. the melody is so soothing. it's nice. i've been playing it and playing it all over again in my computer. a song that i've yet to get tired of. how many people need a shoulder to cry on today yet there's no one around them? sad isn't it. how many friends can sit down for 7 hours to hear you rant about what's going on in your life without interupting you? how many friends and cry with you when you are unhappy about certain issues? not much. out of 10 maybe none of them can. people who we consider as friends. how real are they? anyway. this is a song. if you would like to have the song. go to this website. the lyrics and the song is provided :]
http://www.petalia.org/Songs/a_shoulder_to_cry.htm
LyDiA[Friday, March 31, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Monday, March 27, 2006
first tattoo. 26/03/06. scaredy cat
today was great. went shopping with my dad. went to heeren. first thing i bought was a ripcurl polo t-shirt. haha. one item off my list. and after that we went to koi nobouri. bought 3 pieces of clothes. one tube dress, one 3/4 pants and one vest. pretty. anyway i got my first tattoo on my ankle. it's kinda not proportionate at the moment. gonna do some touch up and hopefully it'll look alot better and nicer. tattoos are for life. and i wanna make sure it's perfect. i'm quite of a perfectionist in art. so yea. pardon me for being so naggy. currently i find the hind leg and the front leg too straight, the head too small, the tail too big, the feet is funny. actually the tail is ok la. just need to proportion it out abit. hopefully it'll work though. but from far to me it's really nice. because the shape is there and everything. it's just the details. haha. sorry for being so fussy. i'm like that. love me for that. if not shut up.
i'm really blessed with a dad like mine. haha. love him so so much. whose dad will go shopping with his daughter? whose dad will go tattooing with his daughter? whose dad will hold hands with his daughter? mine. i really feel very blessed. although i'm not from a very rich family. but i'm contented. my dad is one person i dun wanna lose. he's the one who understands me most. the one who knows about everything. from what i like to who i like. i can tell him about everything and anything. and he can tell me anything too. from his first girlfriend to my mum. what happen and stuff. haha. anyway. i love him.
LyDiA[Monday, March 27, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
confession
haven't been updating my blog for a long long time. that's because i haven't really been at home. go to work in the afternoon. reaching home in the morning. literally morning where the sun's up. then go to work in the afternoon again. pretty much like a routine now. haha. feeling rather down recently for no apparent reason. maybe it's because i'm too emotional or something. feeling stressed and tired and thinking too much of certain useless nonsensical issues. haiz. everytime i'm down. it'll always be the same issue that bothers me. now that i'm working at a place that can drink and stuff. i've been drinking for the past few days. haha. clubbing at rav. watching movies at 4am in the morning. going to k-box after work at 3am. haha. kinda love this night life. reach home sleep. sleep wake up go work. after work go enjoy. and the day goes on like that. but it's kinda exhausting on the other hand. so i didn't work today. for the whole of last week i'm working working working. haha. at least i get to see someone. haha. anything else doesn't really matter. but i look so super lethargic. asshole. haha. ok la. kinda feeling broken down abit. but what to do.
i want to retract the words i said to you
on that faithful night i confessed
everything outwardly seems to be fine
but inside of me, i lied
why did i have to give it away
become part of a character in a story
the drinkings and the late nights out
i would be home sleeping, knock out
who are you to make me feel this way
you are a nobody, a nobody
and that makes you someone in me
just because
it's you
LyDiA[Tuesday, March 14, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Aslyn-That's When I Love You
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when i love you
I love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when i love you
I love you... endlessly
And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget i'm waiting in the rain
Baby i love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when i love you
When i love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie made you cry
That's when i love you
I love you more a little more each time
and when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
that's when i love you
i love you more than you know
and when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby i love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when i love you
When i love you no matter what
Oh...
That's when i love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when i love you
When i love you
No matter what
Oh..
No matter... what
i love you... a common three words exchanged between couples and our God... but which of these times when you said it, is sincere from your heart? which of these times when you said it, you really meant what you said? saying it all the time may become a routine in your life... meaning of the word is numbed by the numerous times you said...
i love you
this three words i'd say to you
sincerely
from the bottom of my heart
not intending to recieve it back
getting the same treatment
i gave
or expecting anything
something that i give freely
out of my own free will
hoping deeply
it'll reach someone true
someone who will not crush
this hope i have inside
treasuring it
like no one's else business
LyDiA[Wednesday, March 08, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
Monday, March 06, 2006
trademark-how could i
I never wanted to fall again
My heart was wounded
From where I'd been before
Then I saw you
I was determined not to feel a thing
Not let it touch me or ever hurt me again
Then I saw you
How could I know
When I saw you
Every thought that I had about love
Would finally come true
How could I know
You'd change my world around
It's all brand new
Since I saw you
I noticed you from across the room
All of my fears disappeared from view
When I saw you
My hearts skipped a beat when I took that first step
I had to touch you before my next breath was through
When I saw you
How could I know
When I saw you
Every thought that I had about love
Would finally come true
How could I know
You'd change my world around
It's all brand new
Since I saw you
LyDiA[Monday, March 06, 2006]
[___nO oNe oWns U, BuT me___]]**
[[*Trapped Soul*]]
Name:Chin Kegan
First Cry:23rd maY 1993
Sch00l:Kranji Secondary School
E-mail:kegan93@hotmail.com
[[*My Adores*]]
Stuffs: I lOvE BeArs
Pastimes:DaYdReAmIng
People: God!!! FaMiLy aND FrIendS!!! StRiKEfORcE!!!
[[*My Detests*]]
People: LiErS AnD BaCkStABBErs
Things: INSeCts!!!
[[*Things I Want*]]
SKIN long sleeve white top-$387
RIPCURL black long sleeve top-$69
heels from TANGS+CO-$199
GUESS belt-$99.90
ED HARDY cap-$149
LEVI'S skirt-$99.90
CONVERSE sneakers-$69
HARLEY DAVIDSON belt
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